I've never been good at journaling, so blogging just doesn't come easy for me. Plus, on top of that my behavioral profile says I'm a thinker/strategy person first, then a communicator second. That means I like to think about things, sometimes way too much…okay maybe all the time…let me think about that statement a little more…and then I like to talk through my thoughts with other people. So when I sit down to blog I tend to spend so much time thinking about what I should say, what does God want me to say, how should I say …you get the idea. Then, I'd like to bounce that off somebody just to make sure my thought process is clear before I post. I have a propensity to complicate things by thinking way too much, so I'll just share with you what touched me this morning. Hope you enjoy reading Perry's blog.
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Wow, I had no idea after writing the last post about waiting that I would actually wait this long before posting again! I'm not that disciplined to post everyday anyway, but a week come on! I just didn't have anything to say, I've been wrestling for words.
In my calling there is pressure (I'm sure much is self imposed) to explain God and His ways. But who am I to explain the great I Am. I'm neither the first nor the last to struggle with this. Ezekial tried but couldn't:
Then there came a voice from above the expanse over their heads as they stood with lowered wings. Above the expanse over their heads was what looked like a throne of sapphire, and high above on the throne was a figure like that of a man. I saw that from what appeared to be his waist up he looked like glowing metal, as if full of fire, and that from there down he looked like fire; and brilliant light surrounded him. Like the appearance of a rainbow in the clouds on a rainy day, so was the radiance around him.
This was the appearance of the likeness of the glory of the LORD. When I saw it, I fell facedown, and I heard the voice of one speaking. Ezekial 1:25-28
All he could do is fall on his face in awe, not say anything. That is where God wanted me this week, didn't have a whole lot to say. Wondering though when I did speak, was it just the sacrifice of a fool?
Stand in Awe of God
Guard your steps when you go to the house of God. Go near to listen rather than to offer the sacrifice of fools, who do not know that they do wrong.
Do not be quick with your mouth,
do not be hasty in your heart
to utter anything before God.
God is in heaven
and you are on earth,
so let your words be few.
Lord, I cannot believe I'm in Your presence. Help me not to be a fool.